A Confession Of Transgressions

I had met you in the depths,

Of the deepest low spot in my life.

We brought each other

Rays of hope,

To illuminate,

The shadows of our strife.

My back was aching then,

From the heavy load of baggage

That I carried.

You never stacked the weights on me,

I just tried to

Keep that struggle buried.

I was hurt by a past love,

And I measured you against her too.

That anxiety

Wasn’t fair to me,

Or you,

But

Mostly you.

I only cared to protect

Myself,

From this vivid imagination,

Of a horrid rumination.

The fictions led

To my distorted life’s

Narration.

I chose you to be my savior,

But,

You could never save me from

Myself.

One day

You were my best friend,

And the next,

A foe I would contend.

The more I loved you,

The more I’d frighten.

The more

I’d wanted you to go.

I couldn’t save me

From my fears,

Yet I could save you

From those tears.

So I’d pushed your love away,

With a muted heart,

Which screamed,

Please stay!

You’ve made me want,

To change my ways.

By giving me a glance, through

Borrowed eyes.

Even in the midst of hurt and anger,

You’ve never wished for my demise.

When I was convinced you were my enemy,

You would prove

You were a friend to me.

Over

And

Over

And

Over again.

You’ve helped to shape my life for the better,

And changed my life forever.

By teaching me a lesson

Vast,

The only demons

That I’m fighting,

Are the demons from my past.

The ones that live

Inside of me,

Are causing,

Most of all,

My miseries.

For even after

We’ve been pushed

To the point

Of full combustion,

You’ve always reassured me,

You’re a woman

I can trust in!

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