I’m shaking like an earthquake,
This heart’s ready to explode.
My whole body is aching,
My confidence erodes
My problem with love,
When there’s a risk to be taken.
I’d oft prefer my dreams,
Except, I’m still afraid I’ll waken.
So, instead I jump start,
The aching of this lonely heart.
Sweet smiles make my heart melt,
And weak knees,
The more I feel,
The less I say.
So afraid of your rejection,
I just let it slip away.
Is this why I choose to be alone?
To avoid a gentle torture,
Which cracks my bones?
I’d rather not drop my guard
I always knew this dating stuff was hard
What’s happened with my withered trust?
Will I be destined to swap,
Great love, for lust?
My heart can’t take another flop,
From atop this heartbreak mountaintop
Another night, another crush,
Twenty eight years crawling,
On hands and knees,
Is leaving me disinterested,
In finding one to please.
Yet, the heart keeps pouring love,
Behind an underwhelming dam.
I’ll be releasing from it,
To not drown in who I am .
Did my childhood fuck me up that bad?
My walls are built up,
So damn high!
I fear to live the life of a nomad.