Living With Anxiety

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Thump, thump,

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Thump!

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My heartbeat pounds,

Against my chest.

I make no sounds,

I get no rest.

It seems…

I’m feeling kind of stressed.

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My heart thuds, three more knocks,

Too anxious to be cognitive,

Except for that one paradox.

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I run

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I fall

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I crawl

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My feet cant keep up to my mind,

It’s the story of my life – I find.

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It comes and goes in waves,

One day I’m flying to the moon,

And the next, the moon is crashing down upon me.

Unstoppable

Confident

Immune,

Then next, a coward’s all I see.

A judgement made too soon?

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Which one is me?

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I suppose it’s somewhere in between

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Anxiety cuts like a knife

A bloodthirsty companion

Who will take your life,

By scaring you with phantoms.

Then draws a blade across your throat,

As your most reliable turncoat.

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He’s the friend that has no soul –

But, he tells you he does it for you.

He only wants what’s best for you,

By leaving you in control.

By saving you from a future,

That’s yet to take a toll.

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Those wounds are going to need some sutures

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There’s no protection from what lies ahead.

Anxiety is full of lies that spread,

Like a malignant tumor,

For a worrying consumer,

One could just ignore it, instead.

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Who am I without these worries?

With a lack of anticipation for life’s furies.

A lack of incredible inner tenseness,

More prone to react to consequences.

Less concerned to be prepared,

About what may never even be there.

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Just another phantom,

Of my anxiety,

Intimidating me,

And begging me to be seen.

Only those who feel it, know exactly what it means.


Tried something different for you all with this one. Let me know what you think. I wanted to add a personal touch to it. Hence the photo and voice recording.

47 thoughts on “Living With Anxiety

  1. “Only those who feel it, know exactly what it means.” I agree… A lot of my friends think that if I just say; pshhh no thank you. It’ll stop. But no, it won’t. There are few who understand and many of them have been through it themselves. Excellent work 😊

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  2. Really, really good poem! I could feel each and every line, and word. You seem to express what I wanted to say. Especially the line: “One day I’m flying to the moon, And the next, the moon is crashing down upon me.”
    P.S. Your voice and reading is really intense too. Amazing! It’d be great if you read more poems of your own. 🙂

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  3. Felt this❤️and when you read it, I can feel it even more, because your words coming from you, and it is not something I just read…. oh wow, this was hard to explain in English… but make me believe in your words… you have a lovely voice, I hope we all can listen more to you. Your poems should be seen and heard and read all over the world, because you are so much talented.
    I really hope you reach far❤️
    Take care.

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  4. I thought this was totally awesome! You made a good song, int he format of a poem. I love the rhyme, and you didn’t get pitchy by saying random things, it was bound tightly and perfectly.

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  5. So on point. I don’t know if Anxiety ever goes away completely or what is going on currently with me but I have not felt anxious in a long time. I really do feel that repetition is key. Repeating things that you will form into a habit such as, listening to positive podcasts, self development podcasts, bob proctor interviews and teachings, meditating and visualizing my goals as if Im already where I want to be with complete faith that it is mine and noone can take what’s meant for me FROM me. Repeating these habits everyday has changed my life tremendously. I am not so worried about the future and more focused and in harmony with who I am. Hope this can help someone. Thank you Mathew for this great post.

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  6. Very interesting! Thanks for sharing and adding a twist to it with the voice recording.

    I was recently reading an article and it gave some helpful information if negative feelings control your life: perhaps trying the following –
    Write down your feelings in a journal
    Express your feelings to a close relative or friend
    Challenge your feelings…for ex: is there really evidence to support such a a negative view of myself?
    Do not hold on to anxiety, anger or resentment..try redirecting your energies to something more productive – proverbs 17:22
    “A joyful heart is good medicine”

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  7. I love how well this metaphor makes its point: “One day I’m flying to the moon, And the next, the moon is crashing down upon me.”

    This really resonated with me: “He’s the friend that has no soul – But, he tells you he does it for you. He only wants what’s best for you, By leaving you in control. By saving you from a future, That’s yet to take a toll.” The word control really caught my eye. You might appreciate this poem: https://lraebpoetry.wordpress.com/2019/03/08/the-plus-one/ It attempted to get at a similar phenomenon.

    Great job, of course!

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