Healthy Self-Punishment, Moving Forward and Being an Old Man in School

“Education is not just about going to school and getting a degree. It’s about widening your knowledge and absorbing the truth about life.” – Shakuntala Devi

Back to School

So, I finally made it to the campus of my University today and I bought my books. It seems like I’m going to be forced to read some awesome novels. Oh, what a shame. A little bit of Shakespeare, and some Agatha Christie, learn some social politics and some other fun stuff. I’m kind of excited about that. To be honest, I’ve been terrible for actually dedicating myself time to read in the past few years. I’ve only been reading maybe two or three books per year max, depending on the sizes of the books. I don’t count little mini-guys.

Childrens books
If we’re counting kid’s books, than I’ve read like 12 ๐Ÿ˜‰

I was able to get my student card and I saw a few of the young people that I’d likely be spending the next 4 years with (…if I stay at this University). Anyways, It’s a good feeling. I’ve been needing something more in my life for a while now. Having 8 months off from work was nice for the first few months, but so much free time was draining on me. It’s hard to stay disciplined and hard working when you have so little in your life. No matter how hard you push yourself. It’s just boring.

I’ve been going to the gym a little more now than I had in previous months and things are starting to feel pretty good in there compared to months ago. I’ve been running too a few times a week now, which before was kind of aching my neck after 5 minutes or so. So, I guess it gives me the warm fuzzies, because I was really afraid having herniated a disc in my neck was going to completely wreck my love for athleticism.

I don’t know about the rest of you, but a man can only work the elliptical and his booty on the stairmaster for so long before it gets old. Running used to be my favorite thing in the world, if I was ever stressed or mad or upset, I would just run. Often times, in my head, it seemed like I was running so fast that any step could miss and I’d just fall on my face. I would run so much pain out of my system sometimes that I was almost daring myself to fall on my face. Yet, I hardly ever wiped out.


Some people cut themselves, or drink themselves into oblivion. For me, as long as I could run, that was my self-inflicted punishment and I always felt amazing after. It was a socially acceptable way of hurting myself and my body didn’t mind it either actually. Nothing leans me out quicker than running a few times a week and really pushing myself until I sweat.

I’ll be sure to keep you all updated on the sassy 19 or 20 year old’s that I encounter at school. I’ll be an old guy compared to the rest of them at 30 years old. If there’s a God, I ask that he please keep my classes from having group assignments, or at least put me in competent work groups. I’ve had some extremely awful groups in the past before. One particular group comes to mind, where I organized all of this information for a slide show and my group member just had to create the slides. I didn’t think it was a job you could screw up, but she managed to put black text over a black background.


*Face Palm*

I suppose I should have asked to see it before she submitted it, but anyways…ย 

Alright it looks like I’m going to have to pop my bubble soon and come out of it. I’m going to have to like… socialize. *Shivers* At least all of my classmates will be book readers and probably introverts too. I can handle that, but if any of them tell me the Twilight books are their favorite, I’m going to secretly judge them.




63 thoughts on “Healthy Self-Punishment, Moving Forward and Being an Old Man in School

  1. Firstly, you’re absolutely going to have group projects. You’re going to have group papers and you’re going to have to combine your writings with the likes of 4-5 other people.

    Secondly, you’re not old.

    Thirdly, perhaps one of those sassy 20 year old girls could remind you of your youth. Age is just a number. I bet you fall in love with one of them and I’m invited to your wedding in Elora.

    Fourthly, I’m jealous of all of the books you’re about to get to start reading.

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    1. Lmao, okay, if I meet a 20 year old girl and we decide to get married in Elora, you’re totally invited. I’ve never been with a girl that much younger than me, but hey, I wouldn’t push them away either.

      I know I’m not old, but I was born feeling 80 so, I guess I feel 80+30 now. I’m like 110 V.

      Those group assignments sound like the thing of nightmares. Why the hell do creative writers need to learn to write something with like 4 other people? Who writes like that in the real world? Am I going to be writing the script for the next Game of Thrones or something?

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      1. My friend Amanda was an English major at UBC. She used to have to write the most horrendous group papers. She would send them to me to edit and be like “I know it looks like it was written by four idiots but can you just make sure the TA will understand it”?

        According to her the group projects were the worst part.

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  2. Hi, Matt… Personally, I think it’s fantastic that you are going back to school. By the way, 30-years-old is only a number. I know a couple of my friends continued additional schooling while they were in the ’40s.
    Make the best of a new venture of your life! Most importantly, enjoy it to the fullest!!

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  3. You are not old my friendโค๏ธ
    I am so happy for you that you are going back to school. This is great and it will be awesome๐ŸŽถand you will stay for 4 years. If you not, I am coming from Norway and drag you to school and sit beside you all the timeโ€ฆ ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป๐Ÿ˜Š
    Running is good, but boxing is also fun and good exerciseโ€ฆ
    Have a great day๐ŸŒธ

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      1. Oh yes.. hell yeah.. Oh my… I’ve always dreamed of cursing in English… I am sorry…
        But, yes.. and that is awesome… to me, so I have a feeling you will like it to. Maybe you should try boxing๐ŸŽถ

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  4. OMG! Super excited for you Mat! You’ll surely rock your University! Yeah, show ’em what ya got! ๐Ÿ˜Šโค๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ Candidly, I can already see you having an awesome adrenaline rush …. learning, sharing, growing, inspiring! The 20-year olds will see that they can raise their standards in their taste department …. once they read your poetry…. woah! They might even do a paparazzi move on you ….. beware of those nasty camera flashes hahah! ๐ŸŽฅ โญ๏ธโœจ๐Ÿ’ซโญ๏ธโœจ๐Ÿ’ซโญ๏ธโœจ๐Ÿ’ซ Keep us all posted on your blog! CHEERS AND BLESSINGS GALORE!!!!! ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘

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  5. You’ve enough sass to cover up for those 19 and 20 year olds ๐Ÿ˜‚

    Since when is 30 old? It’s when you’re strongest, healthiest and so on. I’ve never read for Agatha Christie eventhough a book a day is a must for me. It just has never grabbed my attention, I guess.

    Socialising *gag*. I hope God gives you the power to do that.
    If someone says Twilight is their favourite, exit the convo. Immediately.

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    1. ๐Ÿคฃ Like I’ve said to Vee, I was pretty much born 80 years old in my head so I’m like 110 now. I get along best with old people hahah.

      Thanks a bunch. I’ve never read Agatha Christie before either but I guess it’s time to start! I’ll let you know if its any good. Beat wishes to you as well ๐Ÿ˜


  6. I successfully avoided courses with group projects when I was in college. (Just a midterm, final, and term paper? Sign me up!) Come to find out, success in my profession is completely dependent on collaboration, i.e., group projects! (Little did I know.) In any event, I hope you enjoy your courses. Please keep us posted!

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    1. I guess I’ll just have to learn to live with it, but if I’m paired up with some little party animal being put through University by his rich daddy, somebody’s going to get hurt ๐Ÿ˜

      Thanks for the feedback Liz and the well wishes. ๐Ÿค“ Your profession as an Author requires collaboration?

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  7. Congrats on going back! I loved learning about different works and authors (Agatha Christie is one of my favorites). But group projects were the worst. Good luck and hopefully you have people who actually do their part. And wow…black text over a black background…there are no words. I had a professor straight up give a list of what not to do on PowerPoint. The one I remember was “Please do not use a light colored background with light colored text. No one can see that”. ๐Ÿ˜…

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  8. 30 is not old at all! I’m sure you’ll get along really well with everyone and fit right in. Group projects really suck and I have to do them for most of my courses. I have had okay experiences except two really bad ones last semester.

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      1. Lol yeah so basically we decided to meet at the library and do it together but he never showed up, didn’t even let me know he couldn’t make it so I ended up doing all the work on my own and then had the audacity to criticise what I had come up with! Lol being dramatic is fun sometimes!


  9. Best of luck at school; you’re never too old to learn. I’ve been the old guy in class many, many times. I went back for a second degree at the age of 47 and loved it. I started taking classes some more classes a couple of years ago, at the age of 60. And this is at the same college I teach at! As much as I did not want to do group projects, I’m sure the feeling was mutual that nobody wanted the old guy in their group!

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